Mixed Feelings

I just found out that I got the job that I interviewed for last week. It means we won't starve as we build the business and that I can finally get off COBRA insurance. It is positive for us as a family personally, but personally, not so much. I'm back, after maybe 7 months off, doing the same things I've been doing, being who I was before and losing sight of the business that started as my idea and letting Brian run and plan and do everything for the business. It makes me really sad to have to leave all of the business activities behind, to become another schmuck in a cubicle again. It was really hard making ends meet personally and now that stress will be gone. But I am dreading the return to the status quo, to the 9-5, away from my baby, my business. I know I just need to suck it up, to do what is right for the family, not just me. It will really take me a while to get back in the swing of things, to go to sleep so early, to work M-F again. I am just at a loss of how not to be upset and resentful of having to become what I swore I never would again...